Weekends are a weird thing in our house (if you want to know more click here) if not I will try not to go into the whole family side of things, and stick with me and the horses. I personally struggle not just with weekends but any times when I know I am out on the yard and the boys are in the house. Sure they are having fun without me playing the PlayStation.

But still I don’t like it; weekends are family time aren’t they? On the other hand they are the perfect horsey time, no rushing to get Horatio dressed or planning times for picking Steve up from the station. So unless we have family visiting, the weekends are ours to do what we want with.

So why then do I spend most of it in the house milling around, tidying up or cooking :-S I can see my yard from the kitchen window and look at it longingly the only thing holding me back is a feeling I should be having family time. And maybe sometimes the weather, if it even looks cold I don’t want to risk it. And then I get pleasantly surprised when I do go out there –usually too late to do anything by then-.

The other biggest factor is I’m not riding! I mean sure I love spending time with Nas and even just on the yard I can find jobs to do. But when it really comes down to it, if I could just go out there tack up and head out for a hack. I’m sure I would be out there more.

I’m in that vicious cycle at the moment, Nas needs to be fitter for me to ride him whatever my weight, I’m currently not doing so good on the diet so my weight is too heavy to ride anyways… yes I am frustrated, yes I should just pull it together… but I can’t ride and if I had a crying smiley I would insert it here.

Add that revelation to the previous my head is in quite a pickle. I need to pick myself up from the strop dust of my horse and spend some time in the school playing with him. Instead of getting cross with him because he is frustrated and acting out.

So I made a vow the weekend before last, that the horses will come first. When I thought about it though it didn’t seem very practical, Horatio needs to ride his pony and NAs needs exercising but first thing in the morning they just want to go out, and we just aren’t that organised or we like to walk the dogs first thing. Then come the afternoon I struggle to get motivated (again I think this is down the just not riding).

So I just thought actually we could do it early, but then I remembered it’s easier to walk the dogs early because the car park gets busy :-s see what I mean that’s how my head goes around. The problem is I then end up not doing any of it.

And that’s why no matter what this weekend coming, I am going to make sure they will all get their quality time.  The horses, Dogs and Horatio all need to be doing more, not to mention me and Steve lol. The other thing is we can’t just flake after doing one thing; we need to do it all.

I’ll let you know how it goes next week.