I’m not sure how many days it’s been that I haven’t lost any weight; it must be coming on for 3/4 now. I also haven’t gained any which has got to be good considering we went out for lunch on Sunday and last night we had the best roast chicken ever (thanks elveden and prepare a head roast pott’s). It was one of the biggest meals I’ve had in a few weeks, and I enjoyed every part of it even the carrots and sprouts. We didn’t have dessert but guess what yeah I had a few pieces of fudge after, fudge all gone now :-(.

One thing I did notice was how instantly fat I felt after eating a big meal again, I know I am very fat and will be for a while. but when I’m being good I feel more positive and I’m sure my stomach didn’t look that big earlier in the day. I just feel suddenly huge again when I have a big meal I’m very conscious of my size, it’s a shame because really I would like to eat something nice and enjoy it for what it is, and not to focus on my weight I spend enough of my life getting upset about my weight.

 I kind of knew I wouldn’t lose any weight last night even though I had been good the rest of the day. However I haven’t woken up ravenous this morning, in fact I feel more stuffed than anything still. Normally I would have breakfast just because that’s what you’re meant to do. But now I am trying to listen to myself more. I’m really not hungry right now. Or even craving anything. I’m going to see where this takes me today.

Nas is in a mood at the moment, I’m not sure if it’s the full moon or his time of the month. But when I bought him in yesterday he had a little tizzy at me. For a cob he’s not very hardy in fact he’s a total baby, he doesn’t like the rain in his ears so he tries to walk up the field backwards. This usually involves him knocking into me at some point, or he barges across you and stomps up the field. Recently I have been spending a bit more time trying to get him to lead in calmly and it’s been working. When he walks ahead I make him take steps back and then we go again.

 But not yesterday, it started with him first having a little squeak at me because he wanted his mint. And then halfway up he got totally stroppy did a lil strike and rear before prancing around me on the end of his rope. Luckily there are really big gangways between the fields and it isn’t too much of a problem except the fields are very wet at the moment. Once he calmed down we carried on as normal. He’s still a bit grouchy in his stable this morning such a baby, but I still love him.

I was looking for something to sign off my posts with and I think I am going to nick the words of my 3yr old, he’s been saying it for a while now in the mornings when I take him to nursery…..

Happy Byes