Yep, my weight has stayed the same AGAIN… i know it is probably no surprise that it hasn’t gone down. But even yesterday after 2 Cadbury’s cream eggs and a bag of kinder Buenos eggs (my fave Easter goodies) it’s stayed the same. I should be pleased it hasn’t gone up… I’m not I’m annoyed it hasn’t moved at all. Damn those chocolate companies for bringing out Easter stuff so early. It’s not fair we’ve only just had Christmas as if it isn’t enough that Valentine’s Day is on its way, you have to flaunt Easter.

Up until Christmas and even during Christmas i wouldn’t say i had that much chocolate, i was eating more cakes and biscuits than anything. However other than hot cross buns Easter is all about chocolate to me. It’s so hard to resist, I have such a big chocolate tooth I literally could eat it all day. I was thinking about it last night, maybe because i have been so good with the whole yogurt and fruit. That’s why i keep crashing big style, before i was allowing myself one treat a day, usually a slice of cake. I managed to stick to it for longer periods and my weight went down.

I need to find that plateau again… so my weight can start going down. it’s a common mistake i make, i start to lose weight but it’s just not fast enough so i cut down even more until my body just has enough and i end up eating all the things i cut out. So today i will try something different if i get everything done that i want to, then when i pick Horatio up i will stop for ONE chocolate bar. It’s going to be hard for a few days to get back into the swing, I’m already thinking about food today (specifically sausage rolls and pecan Danish). This is where my brain can be an arse… its already beginning to nag at me – ‘what’s one more day’, ‘if I’m bad today I can start tomorrow being really good’. ‘Why have one bar a day have everything you want now’ and ‘then be ultra-good for rest of week’ blah blah. Then I will start thinking about dates how many weeks is it until say the day I got Nas, if I’m bad today will I still have enough time to lose what I want to ride him.
That is what will be going on in my head today.