This is what happens when I don’t even attempt to be good, despite failing miserably most days. There are the odd few that aren’t to bad, I think these are the ones that help keep me on an even keel.
As you can imagine what with it being my birthday last week, I completely took my eye of the ball and let everything go. The last two days in particular I even shocked myself at how much food I can pack away.
Yesterday was meant to be the day I got back on the wagon but I was soo tired my body needed sugar just to walk the short distance to the school. It was worth it though I had a brilliant day at Windsor horse show. Despite not being able to get a seat in the stand.
It is still one of my favourites.
In a weird way I am quite pleased with what the scales Said this morning, I had fully convinced myself I was we’ll over 24st. No this doesn’t mean I won’t put as much effort into losing it, it’s like my science teacher once told me.
If he gave me a D he knows I would always stay a D but by giving me a C I am more likely to keep that C. So in a roundabout way it’s given me more motivation and enthusiasm to do this once and for all.
Because by this time next year I want to be able to go to Windsor horse show and buy all the nice clothes I saw that I couldn’t fit into this year. I also want to get my fitness back, Sunday was a real eye opener as to how bad it had got.
One other thing I realised over the weekend is I have to give up the junky chocolate on a day to day basis. Sure I know a little of what you fancy shouldn’t do you any harm! The only problem is I can’t just have a little!
Well I can, but I keep going back for a little more! Yesterday I ended up eating six snickers ice cream!!! And that’s not all I had. I know Shocking isn’t it, like I said I even shocked myself.
So as I’ve said before plenty of times I really can’t be trusted to have that sort of stuff in the house! Unlike a McDonald s it’s not the kind of food I ever get sick off. So I’ve figured it out when I have cadburys and the what like.
I’m just gonna have to save it up and have it as a kinda of goal type thing, so for every time I go down a stone will be when I allow myself a bar of cadburys! And no I don’t mean like the 1kg bar I got for Christmas and I definitely don’t mean one of those piddly lil ones either.
Not only is there not enough in them for one person they also don’t make economic sense you get more for your money with the bigger ones. I know most of you are going no! That’s not how your suppose to do it.
But I’m quite excited about it. I know in my head no more cadburys until I see 22st on those scales. It’s not going to change when I have other treats, and I’m not going to avoid chocolate desserts etc,just no more bingeing!