I weighed L and it wasn’t good. Current weight is 22st 5lbs, not a happy bunny right now. But then also not an unhappy enough, not to be ‘buy loads of chocolate’ bunny.  Did you notice the Easter reference there lol.

I weighed just before going shopping which is probably the wrong thing to do, I wonder if I would of bought less goodies if I wasn’t in a ‘sod it’ mood. It’s not a full on sod it mood, because I know this year I will lose weight and ride. It was more a sod it I want to eat what I fancy right now mood.

Which is what I did I was eating snickers before I had even unloaded the trolley. I have to interject here I was really hungry, you know the kind of pangs an tyres screeching in your belly hungry. I also have to say it’s not like I hadn’t eaten either, I had had a small bowl of cereal for breakfast.

I think that is it for ‘me and my cereal fetish’ now though, it was a fun full fat milk and loads of sugar, few days. But now I feel it has come to an end, it might be the snow making me want more or just a natural end to a craving that stuck around for a few weeks

That’s the funny thing about our bodies we never really know what’s going on, sure I reckon I am quite in touch with my body but then thinking about it maybe I’m not, to of gotten so fat for such a long time. Can’t be a good thing to be in touch with.

What I am saying though is sometimes the cravings come not just from our emotions but also for a more mineral need, I can remember as a kid drinking pints of milk and absolutely having to have that milk. Or a sudden thought for a fruit or vegetable would hit me out of the blue.

Still I am pleased to report that now all thoughts of cereal have gone my mind is suddenly a lot clearer again on what I need to do to lose weight. I’ve also got over my dilemma with what to have at lunch or dinner. When The boy has school dinners, I’m going to keep the freezer stocked up with ready meals and homemade meals. That way we can have what we fancy.

So I might have gone a bit overboard on the chocolate yesterday, but I do think there is a method to my madness. I really think my weight gain has been to the fact I have been trying to replace chocolate with any other kind of food I can find in the house.

It’s not a case of having just a little bit of what you fancy, because we all know I do that. It’s more to do with my mind set of not buying it then I’m not going to be tempted to eat it. Which is baloney look at before Christmas I had all those goodies in the house and didn’t touch them.

I think for me it’s the thought of not having anything in and like I said there is no just popping down the shops here, it’s a major trip out so often I don’t bother. But still it doesn’t stop me eating the contents of the fridge.

So that is why I have stocked up with some goodies and will continue to keep a stock. For those times when I need a little treat, or even when we have planned a proper pig out in front of a good film.

Yesterday I was in a pfft mood and did end up eating quite a lot. Today however my mind is back on the game and I am going to stick to two meals two treats…  I still have loads to do for the party so should be quite busy today which will keep my mind of food.