I ended up weighing myself this morning 316lbs. scales didn’t lose time whilst I was away so hoping they will survive the next 36lbs I want to lose. I’m not going to think about where I had got down to. I’m taking my weight this morning as my new starting point and concentrating on getting down to 280lbs (20stone).

Diet/food wise I am trying to go back to the initial principles I had when I started this diet last august, two meals or one treat and one meal. I know most would argue this isn’t a healthy balanced diet. but I know this works for me, all I’m interested in at the moment is getting my weight down and my fitness up.

Once I reach 20st I will review it again, but the mistake I made last time was adding loads of extra bits along the way… sure and apple won’t hurt, but when there isn’t an apple available the biscuits do. It’s amazing how quickly you can develop a taste for the bad stuff after a short break.

I need to do a post on drink options, hopefully next week but for now let’s just say I won’t be having the drinking fudge we got from the fudge kitchen for a while.

As for my fitness the likelihood of me doing the run on Sunday isn’t very high, my motivation for this actually dwindled the day I missed out on being part of the official team for WHW, I’m not blaming them or anyone to be honest.

I’m not even blaming Steve for saying “no point me doing it, cos I would be at the back anyway” or myself either for not doing it. It’s a series of emotional and physical events that has led to the fact I’m just not fit enough or mentally ready. I will go out for a long walk with Steve and the dogs that day instead.

It is time of the month and I am now not only in pain because of my back I’ve got the added excruciating period pains, thank god for feminax. I think I need to see someone about my back it feels like it did when I was a teenager it feels like it needs to click right at the base but never does.

My walking has been lacking the last couple of weeks and yesterday I struggled round the field with the dogs. I will go back to doing my daily mile around the field with them and I’m going to have a look at tai chi.

Nas has also been doing a lot of eating and little exercise, so I will be getting back into some sort of routine with him. His topline was just beginning to properly develop, which is what I want/need for when I do get back on him. Other that he’s in a grumpy mood with me, we always clash when it’s my time of month (Steve argues that I clash with everyone at this time pfft) maybe just the men in my life lol.