If you have read my blog over the last couple of years you might of noticed I have a more specific addiction other than just the umbrella term of ‘chocolate’ ok I have a few but one that comes back to haunt me regularly –heck I even tried basing a diet solely on it’
Yep you guessed it the good old ‘snickers bar’ or when the sun is actually shining the ‘snickers ice-cream’ boy am I addicted to these lovely peanut caramel bars. Of course that is after I had dealt with the name change. Boy what would I do to taste a ‘marathon’ again?
But hey snickers are a very close substitute. The last couple of years I could get the ice cream bars on the way to picking the boy up from nursery. But since the move there isn’t really anywhere that does them. And despite being able to eat a box of them in one go, I really don’t think I should.
So I’ve been picking up the individual bars, I have had so many even the boy is beginning to develop a bit of a taste for them, despite me trying to warn him off with the threat of the nuts. He even started chanting it to me the other day in a bid to get me to share.
This is part of the reason I ended up eating a whole bunch of them in one go on Tuesday, he was quite happily eating fruit after school one day until he saw me with the snickers. That day I insisted he had the fruit. But it struck a chord how can I encourage him to eat fruit while I’m sitting there eating chocolate.
Then the following day I had a bit of a moan about someone and didn’t realise quite how much the whole scenario was upsetting me until I realised I had eaten my mid afternoon snack (snickers) without really considering if I was hungry or not, it also went down a bit to easily with no instant effect. So before I knew it I went back for another one and then another one, right up until I had eaten 5!
At this point I was feeling rather bleugh and horrible but I remembered what my friend had once told me –please don’t try this at home- she use to get mild obsessions over food etc. but the way she dealt with it was to eat loads of whatever she was craving until she felt sick. Figuring I would try her advice I did force the 6th one in, ok it really wasn’t that hard but hey I did feel ill.
After though when I told her about it, she then tells me I have to do that a few times! No way could I do that, I would go back up to my start weight in a couple of weeks! So yes I am disappointed in myself for eating all the snickers not just because I haven’t got one to have right now. But also because it meant I lost control when I thought I was in control.
It won’t deter me though I have cleared up the rubbish and I’m continuing on, I will lose this weight and I will ride a cross country this year.
Oh and before I forget, if you are out and see one of those any flavour you want Milkshake bars… Have the Snickers one I swear you wont be disappointed. I did try making them myself at home, but the bottom of my blender came off, pfft.