I’m not going to focus on how bad I was yesterday… I will say it could have been worse at least I managed to walk the dogs and do something with NAS. Not really the attitude but still nothing I can do now to change it. I can’t change yesterday but I can change today, tomorrow, the future.
I want to talk about foods and there meanings to me… We all have them trigger foods, (I’m not talking your obvious ones… Like McDonalds and chocolate when I have these I instantly want more, I have considered the theory they put something addictive in them. But honestly I think it’s because they are quick, easy and tasty).
What I’m talking about is those subtle ones the one you don’t really know is a problem until you focus on how it makes you feel. Or the ones that you know make your body go into some kind of meltdown yet you still eat them, because you convince yourself… There is no way it could be that particular food, you’ve been eating it all your life and you’ve been fine…
You’re not fine though, seriously if our tastes can buds change… How many of us enjoy certain foods more now than we did as a child (yes I am talking about vegetables lol)
So can the way our bodies react to certain foods… I’ve noticed recently that too much bread gives me terrible wind (honestly where does that come from), also cheese likes to play havoc with my digestive system. Do I stop eating them…? Like heck I do, I enjoy both and have recently got a taste for blue cheese. Do I moderate the quantities I have…? Hell no, but I should. If i do the side effects aren’t as dramatic. (Note to self -limit cheese sandwiches).
On the other side of this coin, are the foods that trigger me into either a nostalgic fuzzy feeling… Or i get this feeling of uneasiness i can’t really explain this it’s just a feeling that sort of puts me in this bubble of Negativity.
Good feeling foods for me are:
Rich tea biscuits- i use to have these with a cup of tea round my Nan’s a lot.
Macaroni cheese- my mum use to make this a lot, a firm family favourite.
Chinese- the first meal out i had with Hubby.
Quality street- this is more to do with the smell, most of them i don’t like but that smell when you first open the tin… Takes me right back to being with my mum.
Bad feeling foods are:
Nutella- I lived with a bloke once for a short period, who wanted me to lose weight from the get go… Nutella was the only chocolaty thing I could get into the trolley, I then use to nip to the kitchen and eat it straight from the jar.
Kiddie sweets- I don’t actually know why on this one, it’s just there I don’t like the feeling when I eat them.
Quorn- there was a time my mum was a vegetarian and we all had to have the same meals as her… Eugh.
This one is recent and not such a bad food… At least I don’t think it is, but I’ve come to realise there is something not right about me and ready brek… It makes me want to hibernate, rather than fuelling me up for the day… It soaks all my energy and resolve. Oh and makes me want more. (I just threw the rest of the box out).
I was once seeing a hypnotherapist and she said that if I had the analytical therapy, she would be able to pinpoint exactly when it was my bad relationship with food was triggered… Do you know what I actually believe now that they could find out? I’m just not sure if I’m ready for the answers… I have good and bad memories from my childhood/past, nothing horrendous. One day in the future and when I can afford the therapy i would like to find out. But for now i am going to keep kicking my butt, and try to make the right decisions to get me to a weight where I can ride.