Yesterday didn’t go quite as planned, it was going ok until I got back from picking Steve up and started dinner for some reason the one piece of cake wasn’t enough, nor was the tunnocks bar or a piece of flapjack, Eugh why do I do it.

After dinner I was shattered and nearly fell asleep but I held out until 9:30 then I couldn’t go stay up anymore and left Steve to it. I think I must have passed right out because the next thing I knew was him coming to bed.

Next week the boy is going back onto school dinners and Steve is going to be at work full time. So hopefully then I will be able to get into a better routine. And there really is no excuse to make cakes etc. in the week. So I’m thinking I will save the sweet treats until the weekends for the time being.

At least until I am back in control and my weight is going down. I’ve also got to get out with the dogs more in the week. And be more productive with my day. That means no more sitting on the pc surfing. I need to get back out there and just do it.

Exercising both Nas and Spirit as well as walking the dogs. Should be enough fitness to kick start me back into being good. I’ve also got into the horrible habit of eating before lunch hence why I had the flapjack mid-morning. Really I don’t need that and I know I am more than capable of going through to lunch.

It also goes back to my thoughts of what triggers me into eating in the first place. I really thought I could get to grips with eating more often but I really don’t think I can I like the structure of eating twice a day but eating until I am full.

So I am going back to that from Monday… I know I could start today but c’mon I have them both home the weather looks dismal as it always does. We shall see though I am resisting flapjack as I type. We’re also just about to take the dogs out for a walk. The boy has chosen the forest which we have never been to.

Then when we get back I am having some scrambled eggs on toast, with a nice glass of orange juice.