Ok so I will admit it my previous post was a bit ‘off’ it’s all very well for me to sit here and say just cut back, exercise more (which is pretty much the talk of the experts, oh except for the voodoo Dr’s who think they have the magic formula that means you never have to go hungry or even exercise, pfft).

So yeah it is easy to say and sometimes I can preach what I say, but then again other times I haven’t a hope in hell. Last week I was good for a few days and then suddenly I found I was thinking about food constantly again. More specifically I was thinking about what I couldn’t eat.

It wasn’t even just about the fact I had limited my options to cereal in the day. It was more the time of day, after getting back into the habit of having a biscuit or even a chocolate with my coffee in the mornings, and the snacking in front of the TV in the evenings.  I wasn’t even hungry at these times, but still I couldn’t stop thinking about food. The worse was when I woke up thinking about food!

To be honest though it wasn’t just limited to those times of the day, it was probably more like the whole day. I just wanted to eat my way through it. A few weeks ago I realised that what the experts had been saying all along about eating for another reason was true, I do eat to supress feelings.

It doesn’t have to be anything major, even just a pfft conversation with Steve or the dogs being pains in the arse. Anything is enough to make me want to sit in front of the TV with a mountain of food and not have to deal with anything. It really does stop me focusing on the other stuff in my life.

In the past my life has = food.

So in a bid to snap myself out of the ‘diet trance’ I was getting into, I stopped again. I stopped thinking about what I could and couldn’t eat. I started thinking about what I WANTED I then tried to reason that really I don’t need a giant bar of chocolate and chocolate brownies would help the craving and fill me up more.

I also planned some nice meals, that I knew we would enjoy, and sure even though I did eat in-between them  I’m know I didn’t eat as much as I could have.  So I’ve taken the time out re-address the situation and now I’m hoping that today onwards I will stay in this more positive frame of mind.

And stick to eating what I know I enjoy, in a quantity that still enables me to lose weight, Rather than eating what I think I should, only to either break it a few hours later. Or to have a slow steady 0.5lb a week weight loss.