I know I’ve said it before but it really is amazing how quickly bad habits develop and start to take over.

In a bid to be good I have resisted buying anything that I just know I won’t be able to resist, one slight flaw to this is I then have nothing in the house for those emergency moments.

I swear on these occasions I actually end up eating more than I would if I just had the chocolate ok yes I said it I’ve resisted buying chocolate even though I’ve really wanted it.

Problem is though I am not just struggling to eat chocolate its all food, my worse time is the evenings, this was a habit I thought 1, I had kicked this habit and 2, if I did have a glitch getting back on track wouldn’t be too hard.

How wrong was I! I can’t stop eating after dinner, well actually I can but then I don’t stop thinking about wanting to be eating which then makes me miserable until I cave and eat cereal.

Ahh yep cereal the bane of my life! I end up eating it in the evenings because there really is nothing else worth eating in the house,

And even though I have been known to rustle up some pancakes in the past. I’m trying to good don’t you know

So I stick to cereal instead -obviously that’s not all I eat- its usually the end of a binge out that can involve anything from crackers and crisps. To cake decorations and cereal.

So this morning before I had even finished mucking out I was craving cereal. And not just any old cereal a specific one we had in the cupboard.

In the end I couldn’t resist and had to go in for a bowl of mini max. As soon as I had the first mouthful I realised I didn’t actually want them.

Its crazy I was only just obsessing over having it. And as soon as I got it I didn’t want it. I did however finish the bowl then headed back out to the yard to finish the mucking out.

I’m now thinking about cereal again, this time cornflakes I picked up some blue milk earlier and now all I can think about is a big bowl of cornflakes with creamy full fat milk and loads of sugar!

Yes I now understand why my firends use to get so frustrated with me, sometimes there is just no helping me, if I can’t help myself.