Ok so today is monthly weigh in day, and I’m embarrassed to say it’s not looking good. I can’t believe a month has passed and all I’ve managed to do is gain an extra 6lbs this is meant to be a weight loss blog, not a guide on how to gain weight (for anyone wanting to know how I managed it… I’m blaming the Easter eggs, specifically kinder bueno eggs and Cadburys).
My weight has gone up and down more times than an international show jumper this month. It was looking so good and promising at the beginning I managed somehow to survive Christmas and get back on track but since then it’s been a struggle… I’m kind of attributing it also to the mini goals I put on myself (I don’t do pressure) plus i have been having a shift around of my eating patterns (again this doesn’t seem to of helped).
When i think about it i lost those first two stone quite easily without too much stress I just cut down what I was eating and cut out all snacks. Eventually this leads me to eating fruit more in turn making my diet a bit healthier. Now as you know I’m not an advocate of the healthy munch bunch… Where you have a diet that consists of raw foods, with plenty of sunflower seeds and pine nuts. In fact I can think of nothing worse- sorry to anyone that does enjoy eating these, please continue to enjoy. But don’t make me out to be a slovenly slob because I don’t enjoy there healthy goodness. It takes a lot for me to enjoy an apple.
I have read all the articles that it only takes so many times to break a habit and form new ones etc., I think what they really mean “it only takes a number of times to break and addiction and to replace it with another addiction”. Habit/addiction really has the same meaning to me. Ok I break the habit of eating but then I replace it with the addiction of dieting (not very successfully I know) again I put this down to the fact that ultimately if I’m not true to myself my body will rebel. Just to clear up what I mean by diet addiction I mean I don’t stop bloody thinking about being on a diet, or what I should be eating on said diet. Even when I’m eating the foods I know I shouldn’t I’m still thinking “ok after this I will be good” this then takes away any enjoyment I get from the food I was eating at that given time. I then fail to stick to being good and the cycle begins…
Believe me eating a piece of GUILT free cake (or whatever you fancy) is one of the simplest pleasures you can have.
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DIET…. That dreaded word… As Garfield would say its ‘die’ with a T.
I have to admit I don’t have a very good history with this word… I know it’s just a word right? Not for me it’s a word I’ve had to live with for the past 20years and in its negative sense, for most of it. I was thinking about this a lot the other day and your right it is just a word, so why do I put energy into thinking about it… It’s even in the title of my blog. Really it’s not the words fault I’m fat… (Ok clinically obese).
It’s not the words fault I have wasted years (ok decades) of my life.
Really I should be proud that I am on a diet and trying to change my life. Say if my health issues were more serious and someone said ok you will live for another 20years but you got to take a pill called ‘diet’… Believe me I would be very grateful for that pill.
I have come to realise it’s not the meaning of the word that needs to change; it’s me that needs to change.