How you work best, how you deal with a situation, what makes you happy? And even one of the most fundamental thing in life is do I actually like that dress, food, person etc.

We often get so lost in just doing the chores whilst secretly stressing about something in the background, life becomes one monotonous routine. Even getting dressed for me is a chore, I don’t like my clothes I buy them because they fit.

It first started for me over Christmas I read an article about Christmas traditions.  And it said to ask your nearest and dearest about what makes Christmas special to them, it gave us as a family time to reflect and think about what was important.

Since then I have been very much introverted in my thoughts about what makes life special to me, and what really is important. I then brought up over dinner last night about a niggle we have as a family –more on this later in the week- for now though we discussed it and the thoughts are in process.

I have been doing the same about my diet and what I really want to achieve along with how that all relates to this blog and horses. So hopefully over the next week I will share with you my thoughts in an eligible manner and you will find some insight into how I tick and what it is I that I am doing to lose weight (I don’t just mean what I am eating either).

Again I am not changing me, I am on a journey not only to ride but find ME. It all sounds very melodramatic doesn’t it, and was one of the reasons why I could never start that book. It always read to me as self obsessed dribble. But then this is a blog about me and my journey.

I do hope someone somewhere will be able to relate and take away a smidgen of what I write, even if it is the just the beginning of a thought that slowly builds momentum into a great big ‘lightbulb moment’.

I’m still not at complete illumination and I might never be. but still I am taking time to think this through thoroughly and see where I get with it. The key to losing weight and being happy, is to be honest with yourself.