I really don’t know what’s worse seeing the scales go up, or them staying the same when you KNOW you’ve been good argh. Can you feel my frustration today. It’s not even like they have gone up per se it just doesn’t know what weight I am.

It can’t be that difficult to make bathroom scales surely. My last set I loved and I mourned the day they finally died. Always consistent and none of this I’ll give you three different readings just to piss your day off lark. I have looked into the wifi scales that send everything to your smart phone or PC.

But I really don’t want to be buying anymore scales, I know I’ve said it before. This time I mean it I don’t want scales to be a part of my life forever (except kitchen ones of course) I don’t want Horatio growing up thinking about his weight and it then affecting his life like it has mine.

Nothing can destroy my mood quicker than what the scales say! In the past I have had some pretty mean things said to me. Nothing comes close to how those poxy scales can make you feel. It’s hard to explain but when your over eating and the scales go up its ok you know why.

When the scales refuse to budge despite being hungry 90% of the day and pushing your body so much that you ache when you go to bed and when you get out. And those bloody scales can’t decide if you’ve put on, lost or gained! You want to kill them.

Yep I went to bed last night dreaming of smashing my scales. But I need them see much like a bad relationship i need them in my life for the good times for the days they say I’ve gone down and I am closer to my goal of riding again. The days when it feels like a pat on the back and what I’m doing is right.

I have been getting on and off scales for 27yrs it’s got to stop. This is one bad relationship I will be glad to see the back off. I need to stop equate good days or bad days with what they say. I need to get up not think about it and get on with the day as planned knowing in myself that yeah I am doing the right things to lose weight.

But I do need to know I’m losing, I can’t just guess I’m an ok weight to ride Nas I need to know my weight is sufficiently down and for the time being I do need to regulate that at least until I’m back on riding. So for the foreseeable future I will be weighing on the scales at the local swimming pool.

The boy has swimming lessons now on a Wednesday so that will be my weigh day, last night I was 24.8 – I will try to take pic of receipt and post it in future- but still 24.8 at end of day fully clothed! Argh my scales said that at beginning of day in my birthday suit. And the scales at pool are notorious for making you heavier…

Where’s that hammer!