But then I feel totally unhappy when I don’t do any at all. So here is a quickie update. I haven’t done much with Nas since last Thursday other than chase him around the apple trees. I had wanted to ride in front of my friend who was staying just to get a few pointers and her opinion on my weight.

She knows me pretty well and when I said I wasn’t sure about riding him because of my weight her only reply was ‘oh your back on that’ think there must have been a bit of eye rolling involved lol. Well the thing is I was feeling a lot heavier again (more on that later).

She did get to see spirit, and although there isn’t too much to say about a little Shetland I did get her seal of approval as suitability for Horatio. Oh and she felt her teeth and thinks we need the vet out, hmm that’s going to be a nice expense for a very little mouth. Oh well will get it booked I suppose.

We were also quite busy out and about with the kids every day, who had a blast dressing up for Halloween and spooking everyone. The lantern walk at bewilderwood was especially good. And Holkham Hall as always was magical.

So yeah my weight… I started of trying to be in control and stick to my plan. This kind of worked until I realised I was eating more and more until eventually I was pretty much picking at food 24hrs a day. And the more food that went in the more my energy began to go.

To the point in the end where I was falling asleep on the sofa just after 8pm, it was crazy I began to feel so lethargic and lazy. I only seemed to have energy for eating. Hence the no riding, and the fact I have put 6lbs back on.
I decided over the weekend I would get some bathroom scales and seeing s they were quite cheap in argos I just went for it, but since I have got them home I have only been able to get them to register my weight once 22st 6lbs. all the other times they just go blank.

I am thinking that is fate trying to tell me not to have scales, so they are going back. And I will go back to using the supermarket scales. As for being good I really wanted to start yesterday on the first of November.
But it didn’t happen too tired, too many Halloween goodies in the house, and no motivation. Plus that is old skool thinking if I start this date then by this date blah blah… you know the rest.

Still I have woken up motivated enough this morning to think about it at least…