To make matters worse the sun is shining today –ok it’s still a bit nippy, but hell it’s shining and I want to be out there enjoying it – not stuck in the house feeling like poop. Every time I look outside it hurts my eyes and I squint. So much for having some proper horsey time today just putting them out took all my strength.

I can’t help but think I should push through it, but then I also know I just want to get better and despite the sun shining it is still bitter out there. I would rather get better as soon as possible than prolong this poxy cold any longer than I have to. Besides there is still stuff I can do in the house and I have the boy home for the holidays so he will want entertaining.

Just a shame he mentioned riding this morning, I just don’t have the strength or patience for that today he hasn’t done anything with the ponies in months and I need to have a good sort out of their tack etc. last time he rode I think we shared the bridle (ooh might have to go shopping). If I’m lucky he might help with the mucking out for some pocket money.

One thing I am pushing on with though is the 30 day squat challenge I mentioned on twitter last night. I did my first set of 50 yesterday it was tough going but I remembered to push down through my heels and I also use my arms as a bit of propulsion. This surprised me when they started to sting. I did the first set of 25 then had a breather before pushing on. It was the final 5 I really began to struggle and grunt my way through it.

My motivation for the squats is I feel they are a good precursor to rising trot which I hope to be doing again very soon. The plan is to be back on Nas by my birthday, which just gives us just over four weeks to get back in shape. This is why I suppose I really should find the energy to at least spin him on the lunge later. I’m beginning to realise little bursts of extra effort here and there actually go a long way.

As for weight etc. I got on the scales today and I’m 23st 6lbs which considering the amount of chocolate and food I ate over the weekend it’s not bad. I did try to control it a bit while still enjoying myself. Yesterday though I realised no matter what time I have lunch/brunch I cannot go through until dinner without a little something in-between.

So despite feeling like poop I am going to push on and hope the thought of spring coming helps keep me motivated.

Up until Christmas and even during Christmas i wouldn’t say i had that much chocolate, i was eating more cakes and biscuits than anything. However other than hot cross buns Easter is all about chocolate to me. It’s so hard to resist, I have such a big chocolate tooth I literally could eat it all day. I was thinking about it last night, maybe because i have been so good with the whole yogurt and fruit. That’s why i keep crashing big style, before i was allowing myself one treat a day, usually a slice of cake. I managed to stick to it for longer periods and my weight went down.

I need to find that plateau again… so my weight can start going down. it’s a common mistake i make, i start to lose weight but it’s just not fast enough so i cut down even more until my body just has enough and i end up eating all the things i cut out. So today i will try something different if i get everything done that i want to, then when i pick Horatio up i will stop for ONE chocolate bar. It’s going to be hard for a few days to get back into the swing, I’m already thinking about food today (specifically sausage rolls and pecan Danish). This is where my brain can be an arse… its already beginning to nag at me – ‘what’s one more day’, ‘if I’m bad today I can start tomorrow being really good’. ‘Why have one bar a day have everything you want now’ and ‘then be ultra-good for rest of week’ blah blah. Then I will start thinking about dates how many weeks is it until say the day I got Nas, if I’m bad today will I still have enough time to lose what I want to ride him.
That is what will be going on in my head today.