My thoughts so expect a lot of waffle over the next few posts… my head is a jumble because the house is in a bit of a tip, I haven’t done much since the weekend other than the necessities. also I’m sure those with families will relate that its an endless never ending task where suddenly you think hey I… Read more →
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Neither One Nor The Other
It’s been playing on my mind recently that there hasn’t been much talk of horses and riding on this blog. It’s probably been a quite a few months since I last tried riding Nas, and once again he hasn’t done much work. I’ve also failed to keep you up to date with his general well-being. Last week he was looking… Read more →
I Lost Myself
The day I started gaining weight… ok this might all sound a little bit melodramatic, but it’s true I promise. I stopped being a person growing up; I became someone who was just growing. For every emotion I felt, I used food to either heighten or dampen it. The thing is I’m not stupid and I can be quite intuitive,… Read more →
Finally I Had
A Good night’s sleep until the pipes woke me up with a start. The last few nights I have been woken by a really nasty sneezing fit where my nose felt like I had been snorting chillis. It was so uncomfortable I came down at 2am to get priritize the other night. Lack of sleep or just general tiredness is… Read more →
Mental Block Or
What… I didn’t last very long on the dark side yesterday, I quickly got sucked into a black hole of self-despair and depression. And we all know the way out of one of those is to eat chocolate -or whatever your weakness food is- you have to eat quite a bit so you can use the wrappers to heave… Read more →
Weight No Go…
Despite being good for the past three days my weight is still hovering around the 313lbs mark! Pfft pfft. I won’t deny it today all I wanna do is eat and say sod you scales, I’m not even hungry or craving anything! I’m just pissed off that despite working really hard over the last few days. And going without food… Read more →
This Year’s Blog
Most of my posts either start with a really clear point that I want to get across or there is a song that has popped into my head and I can’t seem to get it out. Often I will go off to find the song on YouTube just so I can hear it the once. Todays song that came to… Read more →
Sheer Frustration
Not sure where to begin with this post… First off I should point out I was still eating like a horse, grazing and snacking on lots of treats. Also very lethargic and bloated this can only mean one thing. Yep it’s that time of the month again. Argh! (Well not quite, but I know it’s due). Add to that everything… Read more →
Its Anyone’s
Guess to what I really weigh today, to be honest I shouldnt complain seeing as the scales have said I’m 4 lb less than yesterday. I’m not so convinced though, but hey who are we to argue with technology lol. I do know they are never going to be 100% accurate and its nice to have a reference point and… Read more →
Where Does It
…go so wrong. You might already know I’ve been struggling today… I’m not even sure why, I had a fairly good weekend and weight was ok ish at 312lbs this morning. I was struggling this afternoon but managed to keep going and exercise nas as well as clip off one of the dogs and walk them. This is all before… Read more →