This is one of those bitter sweet posts; hmm shall I start with the bitter or the sweet. I’m thinking it’s nicer to end on a good positive note. So I shall start with the bitter…

I worked out last night that it’s taken me around 7months to lose a stone, not good! Sure as usual I have every excuse under the sun ready to defend myself to anyone that I feel is negative towards me.

I can even use the ‘well at least it’s a loss’ line, but none of that really helps me to feel better. Hubby’s way of trying to make me feel better was saying you’ve lost more than that ‘how many times have you lost the same stone’.

When I pointed out that really wasn’t the point, he agreed and finally came out with ‘hmm yeah you would off lost loads if you hadn’t kept putting it on’. So here I am a stone lighter now than I was in April.

I think that’s enough of the bitter talk for now, it’s certainly made me sit up and think about what I’ve been doing. Add that to fact i have once again lost five pounds while still enjoying proper meals and milkshakes and cake. It really is a no brainer if I stick to what I am doing now and gradually increase the activity in my life I will lose weight.

Any how’s let’s go onwards and upwards (actually that should be downwards lol) to the SWEET…

Yay. I rode Nas yesterday, Yay. And it felt good, Yay. Ok i only walked around the school with a few strides of trot. I can’t tell you how good and natural it felt, the only real thing holding me back now is thoughts of my weight doing harm- really don’t want to hurt him – but I had a good friend on the ground and she said he was absolutely fine with me and wasn’t showing any signs of discomfort.

So that’s it now as hubby incisively said again ‘I’ve done it now so i can keep doing it’ he thinks i should be out there every day on him. Obviously that isn’t going to happen but at least a couple of times a week now i am going to be getting on Nas even if it’s just a walk around the school.

Afterwards the same friend helped me with finally pulling his mane and clipping him, well actually she did all of it, like a machine! Made me realise I have got to get myself together, because when I pull his mane I only ever get halfway, then think I will finish it another day and before I know it 6months has passed and his mane is back to where it was and then some.

I feel so positive and excited for the future now, and I’m sure as hell gonna make the next stone come off a darn site quicker. In fact i want the next two off ASAP… I am aiming for 19stone something by Christmas.