I’m not sure if I’ve let myself down or my body has let me down. After a week of being positive and feeling like I’m getting somewhere again. My body decided it was not only time of the month (painful) I was also going to get a cold and toothache.

On top of the constant stress we seem to be having at the moment it was enough to send me into ‘fcuk it mode’ I did spend a couple of days resisting, once I realised I was eating everything in my wake to satisfy my chocolate craving. I gave in and bought my weight in chocolate.

On top of all this Nas isn’t right, its been a couple of weeks since I first noticed he wasn’t walking right. I wouldn’t of called it lame as such, he trots out and isn’t head nodding. But in the walk he definitely is feeling something somewhere.

My friend described it as footy. And the farrier said it was almost a shuffle. There was no heat, after we clipped off his feathers you could really tell he had grown a lot of hoof and one was almost skew whiff, And his heels were very low.

So the farrier came out yesterday and basically said what I just said where the hoof has grown and taken the shoe with it the heels are taking a lot of strain which could also be affecting the tendons. He’s re shod him and tried to give him so more support etc.

If there is no improvement in a few days, then he said he will come back out. But I’m thinking my next port of call will be a reputable back person. Because it could be coming from higher up. Fingers crossed though it was just the angle of the hoof/shoes.

There you have it I’m fairly stressed and right now I’ve realised I’m not one thing or another, I can’t be arsed to be good and I can’t be arsed to not be good either! I think I am actually in dieting no mans land. I wonder what my life would be like if I never had to think about my weight or what I was eating again….