My thoughts so expect a lot of waffle over the next few posts… my head is a jumble because the house is in a bit of a tip, I haven’t done much since the weekend other than the necessities. also I’m sure those with families will relate that its an endless never ending task where suddenly you think hey I only did this yesterday… or even worse earlier that very same day.

I’m not one of your manic cleaners if anything I do border on being a bit of a slob. Hence I always have to keep myself in check. Plus with animals and lil ones things quickly become out of hand. – Bear in mind then that while I’m typing this, I should really either be a: out mucking out, b: tidying and cleaning or c: walking the dogs. I have though chosen none of the above and my own…: sit and type whilst enjoying a rather tasty coffee…

My current weight is 22st3lbs. Which I’m pleased with because I haven’t been particularly good to warrant a drop or particularly bad to warrant a gain either. Other than the hobnobs and bowl of cereal yesterday. I was quite good, I’ve even got use to sharing my dessert with Horatio when we eat out and also fully expect him to eat more. now normally that would put me in a very bad mood, but seeing as he’s my son I can’t really plus I was getting fed up of buying him something of his own only to watch him leave it and still try to eat mine.

we did go for a walk along the beach much to Horatio’s protests, and we had a run around in the water which was fun and I really wish we had on video… there was me Steve and Horatio with the three dogs -Huggy,Mardy,Norbit- all going crazy in the water… I know it’s a cliché but what a difference the sun makes to your mood. I was a little bit on edge because it was warm and Nas had sweated up in the field (time to clip) but he was fine when I got home.

I’m not sure how long this warm patch is going to last but I know I will enjoy it whilst it’s here. Hence why I had my legs out yesterday eugh! They look horrible. There was a point when I was walking loads that they were really beginning to tone up. But since moving other than the stroll along the beach and a couple of times I walked the dogs close to home I really haven’t done much.

Again it’s to do with my head being a jumble and not being in a proper routine… I said to Steve last night that I was looking forward to some down time other the next few weeks and he gave me a funny look like what are you on about. And sure we haven’t been running around as much as usual, but it has still been constant pressure to get the house straight for visitors, get into a routine with Nas – if I don’t muck out first thing even if it’s tempting to chill with family I still have to do it and it plays on your mind.

Also the biggest thing has been getting into school mode for Horatio, as much as I love the extra time and Horatio enjoys the time with new friends. It’s still a big chunk of your week gone. And whereas before if we didn’t do something one day we always knew we could do it the next. Well now we can’t and to add to it we’re not popping distant from a town anymore to go anywhere is an hour to hour and half trip. Which is a big chunk if you want to get Horatios dinner and not too late into bed.

These are all things that have plus sides as well… Nas can stay out longer now, the dogs aren’t so desperate for a walk because we have the garden and fields and they can follow me around when I poo pick. And with Horatio at school it is less tempting to just go out, and hopefully that will mean we spend less and I get more time with Nas. So what I was trying to say was I was looking forward to more quality family time as well as more time for me.

Over the last week or so I’ve found more time to sit down and read a book with Horatio, or watch a film with him and still cook dinner. The next thing is to find some quality Nas time and then everything will be perfect, just as soon as I stop worrying about the what if’s…