So here we are another year has passed and I’m still obese! I’m still not officially a rider! And I’m struggling to find the motivation to change it. That was until I just remembered the Thelwell calendar I can put up tomorrow.

Silly that something so insignificant as a Calendar can make or break your mood. For me it has lifted my spirits and helped me to remember that tomorrow we start a new year. And Although I’m not where I want to be as a person I can start to ring the changes, So to speak.

I think it’s fair to say 2012 was a bitter sweet year. There were highs such as the beach ride, and finally cantering my boy. But these were quickly washed away when the reality of life hit and I all my time was eaten up by other commitments and the stress of struggling financially. It’s certainly been a tough year.

And one I’ll be happy to see the back off. Don’t get me wrong I’m not afraid of a bit of hard work in fact I’m very much of a -bring it on- kind of person. Just this past year I got kinda lost in the stress and responsibility of it. We have a lot of mouths to feed now. And when the pressure is on you can’t enjoy anything.

I am however raring for next year to get here, not only do I have some New Years resolutions I also have a plan and boy am I going to stick to it. I suppose that is one good thing to come of the last few months Its really given me a chance to sit back and think about what I want, And how I’m going to achieve it.

It’s also about me taking responsibility for my actions, no one has made me over weight I did that to myself and its up to me to either accept it or deal with it. Again this past week has given me more insight, since Christmas began my eating has increased and my movement has decreased.

I seriously believe if I hadn’t had the horses to muck out I would of stopped moving altogether. Today it took me 2hrs to muck out 1 horse and 2 ponies, and I still haven’t done hays and feeds. To say I found it a struggle is an understatement. And every day it has gradually got worse and worse. As my consumption has gone up.

It’s not much help when your other half insists christmas isn’t actually over until the 5/6th of January! This would be ok if the scales weren’t going up hourly and I wasn’t struggling to get out of bed every morning. I ache at the moment and despite fighting a cold all over Christmas I know it’s the lack of movement.

Talking of the scales I have no idea what I weigh at the moment, before Christmas I was struggling to keep it around 22 and a half stone. I have promised myself that if the scales say under 23st in the morning, I am going to get on Nas only for a walk around the manège.

It’s just a token to start the new year off the way I want it to continue, if I’m am over then obviously that’s not going to happen. I will still spend some with him and the ponies. Next year I am going to be more focused on the horses and getting out with them and finding the right balance with family time.

As for my New Years resolutions they are a bit mismatched….

1, is to not eat while preparing food. I am terrible for eating while I prepare lunch and dinner.

2, is to not watch reality tv. Horsey documentaries etc are ok, just no more jersey shore, xfactor and the what like.

3, is to find an exercise plan I can stick to, even if it is just a few stretches in the morning.

So there you have it my resolutions and thoughts on next year. Oh one last thing I am aiming for the beach ride again this April…
Right I’m off to clean my tack, I know it’s New Year’s Eve! But I promised my friend I would have it cleaned by the new year, I’d better get a move on.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Jen x