I’m over the Easter blues! Eventually the feel good chemical in the chocolate kicked in and I spent the weekend in a haze doped up on painkillers and chocolate. We all seem to off picked up a stinking rotten cold from somewhere add, that to the constant tooth ache and throw in a bit of pmt, I really am not in a good mood.

To make matters worse the sun is shining today –ok it’s still a bit nippy, but hell it’s shining and I want to be out there enjoying it – not stuck in the house feeling like poop. Every time I look outside it hurts my eyes and I squint. So much for having some proper horsey time today just putting them out took all my strength.

I can’t help but think I should push through it, but then I also know I just want to get better and despite the sun shining it is still bitter out there. I would rather get better as soon as possible than prolong this poxy cold any longer than I have to. Besides there is still stuff I can do in the house and I have the boy home for the holidays so he will want entertaining.

Just a shame he mentioned riding this morning, I just don’t have the strength or patience for that today he hasn’t done anything with the ponies in months and I need to have a good sort out of their tack etc. last time he rode I think we shared the bridle (ooh might have to go shopping). If I’m lucky he might help with the mucking out for some pocket money.

One thing I am pushing on with though is the 30 day squat challenge I mentioned on twitter last night. I did my first set of 50 yesterday it was tough going but I remembered to push down through my heels and I also use my arms as a bit of propulsion. This surprised me when they started to sting. I did the first set of 25 then had a breather before pushing on. It was the final 5 I really began to struggle and grunt my way through it.

My motivation for the squats is I feel they are a good precursor to rising trot which I hope to be doing again very soon. The plan is to be back on Nas by my birthday, which just gives us just over four weeks to get back in shape. This is why I suppose I really should find the energy to at least spin him on the lunge later. I’m beginning to realise little bursts of extra effort here and there actually go a long way.

As for weight etc. I got on the scales today and I’m 23st 6lbs which considering the amount of chocolate and food I ate over the weekend it’s not bad. I did try to control it a bit while still enjoying myself. Yesterday though I realised no matter what time I have lunch/brunch I cannot go through until dinner without a little something in-between.

So despite feeling like poop I am going to push on and hope the thought of spring coming helps keep me motivated.