So i was kinda good yesterday, in one way i managed to walk the dogs, groom Nas and give him a walk around the yard. what i wasn’t good at was just having one treat, that is unless you count the fact i had a box of cream eggs -that counts as ONE right?- i would like to say it was a box of three but then that would be lying. Not surprisingly i didn’t feel like dinner, i just sort of picked at it. I would also like to say not to worry back on it today… again that would be another fib.

I’m not not on it; I’m just border line again. My mood has been down for a few days i don’t think it’s linked to my weight. Just generally i am a bit melancholy, i still haven’t thought about what i want to do just what i don’t want to do lol. I seem to of been in my head, a lot the last few days. The weather doesn’t help, its cold my fingers are cold now whilst I’m typing this. It’s felt darker than usual as well. oh and i can’t say I’ve been particularly hungry, it’s just been easier to sit and munch my way through my mood than it is to actually get off my arse and do something about it.

To kick my butt into action I have given myself some goals…
Short term = be below 319lbs (22st 7lbs) by 1st February
Mid-term = be 280lbs (20stone) by 21st April
Long term = goal 180 (12st 12lbs) one day

The mid-term goal is the date I got Nas four years ago, I’m determined to be riding him by then this year. I did say about this time last year If I wasn’t riding him by then I would sell him, we did look into it and went so far as to put an advert on horsemart. But I just couldn’t go through with it, even more so this year as much as he can be a pain with his lil bully ways he is really lovely this morning we had a really nice snuggle moment.

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