Seriously sometimes I do wonder where my head is at, I forget more than I remember, often if I have a really good thought about something it’s gone by the time I have a chance to put it down on paper or even to really process it.

So in the past week I’ve had two such incidences one happened just this morning : normally Saturday mornings can be a bit fractious in this house. As much as I love the horses and wouldn’t be without them, equally I love my family and enjoy my down time with them. So when I have to go out and do yard chores while Steve and the boy are snuggled on the sofa playing a computer game or watching a film.

I rush the yard work and come in as quick as possible, usually pissed at myself because I’ve rushed it and would like to spend more time out there, but also like I said I want to be indoors with the family. And if anyone knows me when I am pissed at myself I am pissed at the world. So usually Steve and sometimes the boy get it in the neck, especially if I come in and the house feels like a tip.

We normally combat this by filling up our weekends which means I actually have no choice but to get horses done so we can go out, although that often back fires when I don’t have time to do them in the morning and I have to come back from a lovely day out to do yard chores, once again while the boys are in the house relaxing. So it doesn’t actually take away the fractiousness it just delays it.

So this morning while I was doing the washing before I went on the yard -yep while the boys were watching scooby doo- it hit me, Saturday morning is a perfect time for Steve to sit down and do the boys homework!! Why? Hadn’t I thought of this before the last few weeks I have struggled to fit it in to a Sunday or even left it until Monday afternoons, when neither of us really want to do it.

So I’ve just come in after spending a good hour on the yard lifting beds and doing a bit of tidying. And I feel relaxed knowing that the boys have done something productive. It’s a much nicer start to our day and the need to get out of house isn’t there either, so once I’ve finished this post I will be making some American pancakes for brunch and then I’ll be joining them on the sofa to play games

The other numpty scenario is about Nas he has this snot problem at the moment and the vet wants to scope him. Now I fear they will scope him and just confirm that he has a snot problem. And although its more free moving now he is on shavings it doesn’t seem to be shifting fully. So it hit me the other day like Doh!

Why not try the supplement he had before and if it does clear him up then I will know its allergies and if it doesn’t I will know its something that will need a little more investigating. He’s been back on it for past couple days full dose, and nothing has changed yet hopefully once it’s in his system we will notice a difference.

It’s weird though because some days he has been clear and others he has been completely snotty again. Thinking back though at the beach with all the hard work he didn’t have any laboured breathing at all. I also think that is another factor he hasn’t done any work recently so his system is probably getting a little clogged up. Hopefully that will all change next week.

I seem to be out of my funk and ready to start getting on again. For a few days there I let everything pile on top of me until I was ready to just hide my head in the cadburys. Last week I mentioned how in control I felt we’ll when my weight didn’t go down, I tried to cut back more and I just got so disheartened that I lost all control again.

I’m now trying not to control it at all, but just keep plugging away at doing all my jobs and then some. Until I feel a bit more on top of things again.