Or for those that know it’s…  “No way José”

And those that are still confused my new year’s resolution is to not weigh myself anymore, well at least not for 2014. I just don’t want to know anymore, all I am interested in is getting fitter and getting smaller.  It’s no longer just about being an acceptable weight to ride, it’s about being fit enough to ride and it’s about taking the focus of what those scales say away.

At end of the day I have weighed myself in the past to see if I am losing which is effectively getting smaller. We’ve all been there though when we have been in a really good place and then we get on the scales only to find they don’t reflect our thoughts or jeans for that matter. It’s then all downhill into a spiral of misery and eating. Ok sure there are the odd few who will get on the scales and be surprised that they have actually lost.

Unfortunately I am not one of them. I have never EVER lost weight through misery or stress or any other emotion on occasion when I am happy I have been able to keep my eating in check a tad but then I get really happy and the eating kicks up a notch. And then I’m not so happy anymore. So for this year my focus is on getting us all fitter and hoping that will lead to smaller. Of course I will be dieting there really is no avoiding it, no matter what exercise I do I do need to cut my eating down somewhere.

So I have decided on a plan which I am determined to stick to, regardless of how quick or slow my results are. There was a point somewhere between Christmas and New Year where I was attracted by the sparkly but dark side of doing a shake diet. I somehow managed to convince myself it was my only hope –ok it might have had something to do with all the posts on Facebook of people who were wanting to share their success’s- and as much as I scoffed at them I was suckered in to thinking it’s a path I wanted to take.

I’m pleased to report I quickly came to my senses and went back to scoffing at them (but don’t tell them that!) I swore off diets a long time ago and sure you could say where  has it got me I lost 3stone and put most of it back on. The truth is though diet or no diet I would have still done that. I had spent almost 20yrs prior to my ‘doing it my way’ where I was always on some kind of “diet” p.s from now on when I say “diet” I mean where someone else is trying to tell me what I should and shouldn’t be eating, whereas plain old diet just means what I am choosing to eat or rather what not to eat in order to lose weight.

So I guess you want to know what I’m doing its simple really and you have heard it all before. But this time around I’m going with the 3 meals a day. I’m not going to say ‘small’ because darn it some days I just need to eat more. Where I will be cutting back initially is I am not having any sweet treats whatsoever. In fact the sweetest thing I will be having is my cereal. I will then have a lunch and a dinner both consisting f what is on offer or available. I’m not going to try and supplement my diet with additional fruit or probiotic yogurts etc. I wouldn’t eat these if I wasn’t trying to lose weight so why pretend to like them when I am trying.

It’s hard enough cutting down as it is without replacing what you like with foods you don’t like. Ok I don’t 100% hate fruit but it’s not something that factor regularly into my life at the moment I much prefer my veggies. Of course if I get a sudden craving for some as my body adjusts I’m not saying I will never have it. but at least for the time being I am going to stay away from anything that might trigger me into thinking I can control my sweet tooth, which is something else I want to talk more on at some point. I had another one of my little epiphany’s over Christmas that I want to share with you.

So there you have it no great surprises other than fact I’ve already started both cutting back and doing more I haven’t stopped pushing myself over Christmas I have walked around the field everyday (ok again there is good reason for that and I shall introduce him when I have time to add pictures).  It has been an excellent but exhausting Christmas which has left me with little energy to think about horsey goals.  The boy is back at school tomorrow and I have spent last few days blitzing the house. I think tomorrow will finally be the day I get to do more than muck out!