I’m back, been another busy week right thru to the weekend. Hopefully now it will calm down for few weeks. Diet went out of the window last week I was so tired after horse of the year show; I didn’t even try to watch what I was eating. I did manage to stick to my walking the dogs rule, this afternoon we took them up the forest for an hour.  I have been kind of realising though that just walking the dogs isn’t enough my fitness levels aren’t improving very much the only plus side is I can walk a bit further before being in pain. Plus I want Horatio to come out with me more which slows me right down; I want it to be relaxing and not some kind of corporal punishment. So I need to do something I was going to go to the gym, I just don’t think I can fit it in at the moment. Really have got to start doing the Pilates DVD I mentioned.

I’ve been really tired still today, apart from walking the dogs and taking Horatio up to my friends to ride her pony. I haven’t done anything much. Even as I type this my eyes are still heavy, so I thought I would try one of the energy drinks I bought the other day. Eugh it was yuck I just about managed a sip before pouring it down the sink, it was a sugar free one so I thought it might give me a boost to last me through the afternoons. No such luck, I don’t think there is anything out there to make the afternoons easier.

 It’s a pain getting back into good mode; I often totally regret going off the rails in the first place. things I notice when I start limiting calories again is I feel cold and constantly tired this usually lasts for about a week. Eventually if I persevere then I come out the other side like a butterfly all awake and ready to stretch. I have been kind of good today except for the cookie truffles I just had, but me and hubby have said we are going to get serious now. Tonight is his last night of alcohol (wine) and my last night of sweets (chocolate, cake, biscuits) this is only until Halloween weekend. I know he’s struggling with thought of it already lol. But hopefully we can stay focused, and support each other.

I’m also struggling with motivation for Nas at the moment, hmm that doesn’t sound right… Nas is great what I’m struggling with is keeping myself motivated to do the basics with him, I keep saying things in my head like ‘if I was riding him then I would go out and groom/exercise him now’ this isn’t very productive at all I know that just by doing him would shift my arse more than it is whilst I’m sitting here. But still I look for excuses not to. Last week was crazy; we’ve been having a mass tidy up in the house and clearing out all the junk. Hopefully now all that should of cleared my mind and I’ll be able to spend some real quality time with him this week.  I need to clip his feathers off and give him a good groom his mane is a right muddy mess.