Oh my god it’s been a struggle… But I have finally managed it; ok sure I would have done it sooner if i hadn’t pigged out or gone completely of the rails. (Always easier said than done). However yesterday I got on the scales and they couldn’t decide between 22st 13lbs or 22st 12lbs… In the end i decided on the higher one, if I’m being totally honest I was probably leaning back on the scales to get the lower weight.

I didn’t do some mad cap diet/detox. I just went back to doing what I know works…  have two decent meals a day, and one sweet treat. I also usually have a yogurt after my evening meal. And instead of breakfast I have a glass orange juice I started putting lemonade in it to make it go a bit further. On the days I’m particularly hungry or I’ve done more such as the training for the run. I have fruit usually an apple or banana or even both lol.

I don’t aim to have the sweet treat every day, but if I do then I don’t have massive meals. As I’ve said for me it’s about the balance I know when I’ve eaten too much or when I can afford to have that extra treat. I also know that if I can manage to not have a treat every day I am likely to lose more weight. As well as know that if I don’t have something when on a family day out, I almost definitley end up feeling cheated and end up binging later.

There are two things I need to get a grip on, one is if i do eat too much I don’t use it as an excuse to have a full blow out. Usually it is the ideal time for me to say ‘ah well i can start again tomorrow’ and when tomorrow comes I’m usually ‘FFs why did I ruin it’. The annoying thing is it’s not even like I’m saying to myself I can’t have the treats… Nothing is off limits to me. The only thing is I can’t have them all in one day.

The other diet danger I have is… When I try to cut back too much, this usually happens after a binge, it’s when my mind goes into overdrive and starts thinking right I want to lose this weight as quick as possible what can I do (short of not eating). This is when I’m at my weakest and start seriously considering all the fad diets. Or I try to cut my options right down and stick to a rigid routine. Usually I don’t even last half a day on these kinds of diets and before I know it I am in the binge, crazy diet cycle.

It’s not until I take myself out of the cycle that I really see the light so to speak and go back to the beginning. Ok the longer I stick to a diet the less food I do eventually end up eating. What i can’t do is eating like a horse one day and expects to be able to eat like a rabbit the next. My body just doesn’t cope.